Walking Dead

I. Am. So. Over. It.

This past week was incredibly unproductive, and this next week does not look to be off to a good start. The fact that libraries are closed (or not open long enough) on Fridays and this last Monday (Memorial Day) really screws with me. Then tomorrow I need to pick up my mom from the airport, which cuts a good hour to hour and a half out of the day. Doesn't sound like much, but when you spend 12 hours a day studying, not to mention all those other things like eating and showering (and walking in the morning when I can get myself out of bed), a couple hours is HUGE. So my day will be shortened tomorrow, and I am already behind (for the first time) from last week. There is literally no time to catch up (again, see the length of my day).

To cap it all off, I did the worst that I have done so far on my practice tests this Saturday. I take 2 sets of questions that cover only the material I have done the past week, and then 1 set of questions that is cumulative over everything I have done. I did terrible on the 2 tests over the last week and pretty well on the cumulative. What does that mean? Basically, it means that I didn't study well at all this last week and that the weeks prior I learned it so well it's still with me (at least that's what I think it means). That is very frustrating. How much will one bad week affect my score? The education department at school says not to worry when you get behind (because you will) or when you progressively do worse on the practice exams (because you will), but I just can't help it. I had such good momentum and I've lost it and there's no time to get it back. I guess I'll just have to let it go. So frustrating. And I still have 2.5 weeks left. Ugh.

A positive note: my brother's baseball team blew EVERYONE out of the water by winning their conference (they were the bottom seed) and getting a bid to regionals (their first in 45 years and the only team this year to have a less than .500 record- they had lost more games during the season than they had won). They were the bottom seed in that regional as well. After an embarrassing loss the first night to the #1 seed (#2 in the country), they again defied the odds by beating the #2 and #3 seeds to earn a rematch with the #1 seed tonight. Currently they are getting embarrassed again, and they won't win, but they did SUCH a great job...so much better than anyone expected of them. My brother did amazing versus the #2 seed, and was doing great tonight against the #1 seed (until they left him in WAY longer than they normally do and it kind of went downhill...oops). I'm really proud of him and I hope this earns their team some respect.

That's all for tonight. Definately keep praying for me that I find my motivation again. These last two weeks are so crucial...ugh ugh ugh.

Zoom!

This month has gone by SO quickly. 3 weeks from today I take the boards, and that is so soon. At the same time, I can't believe I've only been studying for 2 1/2 weeks, it feels like this is all I have ever done. I put in a lot of time to be SUPER organized before my studying started, and for me that has really paid off. It keeps me on track and actually makes the studying kind of enjoyable.
What I do NOT enjoy is people with poor library etiquette. Now, most of the time I study at a high school library that is also a branch of a public library. I understand that there will be high school kids in there a lot of the time, and that they can be very talkative and loud. I was willing to deal with that. What I wasn't prepared for was the teachers who don't realize that the library is not the cafeteria nor a classroom. Whisper! When did it become okay to have a full volume conversation in a library?? Maybe I have been in college campus libraries for too long, but if you uttered a peep on some floors of the Creighton or U of A library, you would get many stares of death. No such stares here (unless you count me staring at these noise-y's). I actually got up and left the library today because one teacher was being so loud. Unbelievable.
Anyways, I'm about half way through...pray that I can make it through!

Whoa.

Life is more than a little crazy right now. I have my days planned out by the hour (at times even by the minute) and it's exhausting but I feel oddly centered and calm about it. We'll see if that continues tomorrow after I take 1/2 of a mock test. It's the first one I'm scheduled to take, and it doesn't matter how well you think you know the stuff if you can't answer the questions they ask. Wish me luck!