Oy, oy, oy.
It's been a long 6 weeks! And I currently only have the energy/time for a short post. I will update soon about the past few weeks, but right now I have bigger things on my mind.
Tomorrow I find out IF I Matched (yes, some people don't Match, and then have to go through Scramble...I won't even detail that because I do not want that to enter into my karma), and Thursday I will find out the WHERE. This is literally the biggest week of my life since I found out I got into medical school.
That means right now, this is the last time I will really feel like a "student"...uncertain about my future, jobless, focused solely on getting through school. The next few days open up the doors of the next 3 years of my life. It allows me to plan where I am going to live, who I will get to be around, etc. Just everything.
I haven't had a future until this week. I couldn't really see post-med school until this week. And it is almost real now. My future will get sharper tomorrow (although I am certain I Matched somewhere, so it won't be big news) and will get layed out in full on Thursday. I can move on with my life, into my career and hopefully get on with all the other (more important) things that make me the person I am. I can start becoming the person I want to be. Although I could (and definitely should) have done this while in school, I feel like I have personally been on "pause" for the last 4 years. It is SO time to move on.
I am: terrified. nervous. excited. amazed. proud. relieved. shocked. anxious. Any other adjectives you can think of? I'm sure I feel those too. I'll update frequently during this week. Thanks for sticking through school with me until the end!
