Bewildered

Naturally, it has come to the end of my time on this rotation and I haven't blogged at all. Sheesh.

This rotation has been alright. I had much less responsibility and got sent home before noon on more days than I can count...not that I'm complaining, since I have my Shelf exam to be studying for, but it was very unexpected. I didn't have to put much effort into my day to day responsibilities. Maybe that's because I finally got the hang of some things, but I still know close to nothing in the grand scheme of Medicine. And now it's over.

AC stayed much the same throughout. Always copying what I did (if I pulled out my book to look something up, he would rush to get his out...if I gave a handout with my presentation, he did too...if I was talking to someone, he would interrupt me and ask 5 times what I was talking about until I gave him the Reader's Digest version). Needless to say AC was taxing, but they did get a little better by the end. I hope AC does well in future rotations and learns to chillax a little bit.

My Shelf exam is in 3 days. I'm not that worried about it, and I hope that turns out ok. I've been studying, but only for the past 5 weeks or so. Again, hopefully that's enough.

Now something NOT about school...I have a date tonight. This is V-E-R-Y weird. I have never been asked on a date like that in my whole 23 years; I have always dated friends. I'm not expecting it to be great, and I have a feeling that the guy called me because he feels bad for me, but I just don't want it to be terrible. I have been concocting "worst-case scenario" scenes in my head all day and trying to decide what I would do if any of these things happened (ex. I fall and moon the whole restaurant...I get sweaty...the invariably awkward end of the evening). I'm freaked out. Period. I hate doing things that make me look stupid, and there is so much potential for stupidity tonight it is terrifying. I guess I will just have to "fake it til I make it" with confidence and comfortability. Whatever. Freaking scared. I'll be sure to write how it goes, no matter how late I get home (or early).