1. When I called in to work this morning to say that I was not going to be able to come in, the person I talked with informed me that the physician I am working with has taken off til Monday! The physician later called me and said that she arranged with the Nurse Practitioner for me to work with her if I am feeling better before Monday. I am sure I will at least go in on Friday, tomorrow is questionable.
2. I found out that I did pretty well on my Internal Medicine Shelf exam that I took about 3 weeks ago...actually, WAY better than I thought I did! I thought there was a good chance I failed it and would have to retake it, but I was WELL above failing. NO CLUE how that happened, but I'm thankful! I may have done well enough to Honor the block if my clinical evaluations were good enough- to honor, I had to have done at or above the mean on the Shelf. I'm not sure what the mean is this year (it fluctuates), but I'm pretty close so we'll see if it was enough! My goal has been to get Honors in my clinical evaluations in all the blocks, and I didn't really think that I might Honor a complete block, especially Medicine, so this is pretty exciting! I find out my grade in 3-5 weeks. We'll see!
10.14.2009
10.13.2009
Sick
So I lasted exactly 5 days in the FCM clinic before I got sick. That's pretty sad! I showed up to work on Monday feeling a little tickle in my throat, and the physician I am working with showed up feeling the exact same way. By 10am she had decided to take the afternoon and the next day off, and I was SO thankful because I was feeling much worse by that time. I was supposed to have lecture on Tuesday afternoon, but I was definately coughing and runny nose-ing all over the place and didn't want my classmates to get sick. I don't have a fever (I have been checking like every 3 hours), which is really good, but I am definately still sick. When I called in about lecture, the doctor said that if I am symptomatic I should definately NOT go into the clinic. Hmm...I'm thinking that might mean another day off tomorrow. Particularly because the physician I work with is pregnant...even though it sounds like she had exactly what I have, I do not want to be around her if she is feeling better and I am still feeling sick. Pretty sure we both caught it from the same kids that were in the clinic on Friday (4 kids in 1 exam room all hacking up their lungs and crawling all over me...yikes!). Hopefully I will catch most mild illnesses before I get onto Peds in a month so I'm immune by then! I'm NEVER sick so this is hard for me. I'm just glad there's no fever or else I would really be a baby and probably call my mom! Not really, but it would be pretty close. While I won't mind another day off, it is hard to miss even a couple of days when my rotation is only 5 weeks (or 25 work days) long...I don't want to miss out on anything! But the patients come first, and if I am putting them at risk for getting sick just by seeing me, that's not right. We'll see how I feel in the morning!
10.11.2009
Expansion
One week done with my FCM rotation. I actually like it more than I thought I would, which truthfully isn't that surprising. I didn't think I would like it, but had a feeling I would like it more than I thought I would, so I'm not surprised that I actually do like it, but it is weird. If that makes sense! I have been seeing 12ish patients a day, which is a LOT more than I have ever seen before. I am getting pretty speedy and usually have a pretty good idea about what is going on with the patients (and my ideas are actually usually right!), so it is encouraging. I have seen a number of kids ranging from 2 days to 15 years old, and I (VERY surprisingly) LOVE them. Now, they have all been very well behaved and cooperative, no crying or clinging to mom, so that is unusual, but I am very surprised to learn that I like working with them. I especially like working with teenagers, which I already knew. All in all, it was a good week; busy, productive, and educational.
D and I went to a Primal Hour workout with a trainer earlier this week...no weights, no boxing bags, just using your own body weight and a tire (like from a car) to run around or balance on. It was SO hard! I was sore the day after, but 2 days after I literally was dying! My feet and calves hurt SO bad! It was wonderful! I definately think we are going to go back; the class is twice a week at a time when we can both go. Since it is really fun as well as really hard, I think I will actually go and enjoy it, so it is definately worth the price. I'm excited for the next one!
Lastly, I heard from C around the middle of the week. He told me that his grandpa died and so "everything is on hold and family is flying in". Now, I have no idea why he needed to tell me that; the only thing I can think of is that he wanted to let me know that I might not be hearing from him for a few days and that that was the reason so I wouldn't be upset. I think that is a good thing...? So I guess since the funeral was this weekend I should expect to hear from him this week maybe? Not sure, all I know is I would like to hang out with him again, so I hope he calls, but I'm not exactly waiting around for it. We'll see!
D and I went to a Primal Hour workout with a trainer earlier this week...no weights, no boxing bags, just using your own body weight and a tire (like from a car) to run around or balance on. It was SO hard! I was sore the day after, but 2 days after I literally was dying! My feet and calves hurt SO bad! It was wonderful! I definately think we are going to go back; the class is twice a week at a time when we can both go. Since it is really fun as well as really hard, I think I will actually go and enjoy it, so it is definately worth the price. I'm excited for the next one!
Lastly, I heard from C around the middle of the week. He told me that his grandpa died and so "everything is on hold and family is flying in". Now, I have no idea why he needed to tell me that; the only thing I can think of is that he wanted to let me know that I might not be hearing from him for a few days and that that was the reason so I wouldn't be upset. I think that is a good thing...? So I guess since the funeral was this weekend I should expect to hear from him this week maybe? Not sure, all I know is I would like to hang out with him again, so I hope he calls, but I'm not exactly waiting around for it. We'll see!
10.05.2009
New
And it begins again! I am now on my Family and Community Medicine (FCM) rotation. I am working at an outpatient clinic that serves a number of underserved populations (illegal immigrants, refugees, poor, etc.). I just spent a couple hours there this afternoon to get oriented, and it was actually really fun! It is a very busy clinic, so I will need to move quick, and I'm sure I'll see a TON of patients scared about "pig flu", but I think I will enjoy it. The doctor I worked with today is very nice, and there are no residents or interns or other medical students which means lots of teaching time for me! Hopefully I can impress them!
I was able to get down to Tucson this weekend to see some friends from school who I have not been able to see for the past 10 weeks. It was really great to catch up with them; I am definately not going to let 10 weeks go by again without seeing them!
Lastly, I think my dates with C have come to an end. I didn't hear from him all last week and when I finally did it was "I think you're a sweetheart, but I don't know how compatible our lifestyles are. I want to take you out again, but I don't think going out drinking with me on the weekends is a good idea". So I'm not too sure what that exactly means; if he calls again and wants to go out, I definately would, but I think I have him pegged as a non-committal typical single 20-something. It has nothing to do with me...that is just his attitude right now, and if that's working for him then that's totally fine. I really hope we can be friends though, since I really do like hanging out with him and having someone outside of medicine to do things with!
That's all...hopefully I'll have plenty of time on FCM to do other things and blog about them!
I was able to get down to Tucson this weekend to see some friends from school who I have not been able to see for the past 10 weeks. It was really great to catch up with them; I am definately not going to let 10 weeks go by again without seeing them!
Lastly, I think my dates with C have come to an end. I didn't hear from him all last week and when I finally did it was "I think you're a sweetheart, but I don't know how compatible our lifestyles are. I want to take you out again, but I don't think going out drinking with me on the weekends is a good idea". So I'm not too sure what that exactly means; if he calls again and wants to go out, I definately would, but I think I have him pegged as a non-committal typical single 20-something. It has nothing to do with me...that is just his attitude right now, and if that's working for him then that's totally fine. I really hope we can be friends though, since I really do like hanging out with him and having someone outside of medicine to do things with!
That's all...hopefully I'll have plenty of time on FCM to do other things and blog about them!
9.29.2009
Wanderer
Wow, so many posts recently! Just thinkin a lot I guess, and I have much more time!
I've been thinking about what a rollercoaster my thoughts have been for the last while. I simultaneously hold two totally opposite opinions about something. I am excited and blase, angry and crushed, hopeful and downtrodden. I do not ever remember being this confused with myself in my whole life. I thought your 20's were supposed to be about finding yourself and loving your life and having everything just fall into place. I hope this is not my only opportunity for those things to happen because if so then the rest of my life will be like being on the ocean during a hurricane in a tug boat.
I just wish I knew what was going on most of the time. I wish I knew how I felt about everything that happened to me instead of being able to see both sides of any situation. I should know if something will make me mad or if I will think it is funny, but somehow I usually don't!
Someone asked me the other day what I like to do, and literally the words out of my mouth were "I don't know". Now, I would like to think that I do know, but I really needed to sit down and think about it. I like to read, I like to sleep, ..... yea, I don't know! I know that I am up for anything; I will go see a movie or go to the zoo or go for a hike or go out for a drink, but what do I, Heather, actually like? When I have nothing to do, what do I think to do? The answer to that is usually nothing; I usually just end up sitting around and watching TV or being lazy. And that's what it is, I am lazy. Because, again, once I get up and do some of those other things I usually have a great time. I just never think to do them or plan them. I don't know what I need to do to get some motivation; being in med school you'd think I had motivation but I guess I only have it academically.
This has been sufficiently long and random and kind of dumpy, so I think I'll quit. I just wanted to remember that I did feel this confused at one time in my life.
I've been thinking about what a rollercoaster my thoughts have been for the last while. I simultaneously hold two totally opposite opinions about something. I am excited and blase, angry and crushed, hopeful and downtrodden. I do not ever remember being this confused with myself in my whole life. I thought your 20's were supposed to be about finding yourself and loving your life and having everything just fall into place. I hope this is not my only opportunity for those things to happen because if so then the rest of my life will be like being on the ocean during a hurricane in a tug boat.
I just wish I knew what was going on most of the time. I wish I knew how I felt about everything that happened to me instead of being able to see both sides of any situation. I should know if something will make me mad or if I will think it is funny, but somehow I usually don't!
Someone asked me the other day what I like to do, and literally the words out of my mouth were "I don't know". Now, I would like to think that I do know, but I really needed to sit down and think about it. I like to read, I like to sleep, ..... yea, I don't know! I know that I am up for anything; I will go see a movie or go to the zoo or go for a hike or go out for a drink, but what do I, Heather, actually like? When I have nothing to do, what do I think to do? The answer to that is usually nothing; I usually just end up sitting around and watching TV or being lazy. And that's what it is, I am lazy. Because, again, once I get up and do some of those other things I usually have a great time. I just never think to do them or plan them. I don't know what I need to do to get some motivation; being in med school you'd think I had motivation but I guess I only have it academically.
This has been sufficiently long and random and kind of dumpy, so I think I'll quit. I just wanted to remember that I did feel this confused at one time in my life.
9.28.2009
Respite
Ah, intersessions week. This week I am in the classroom once again, 8-5, with no off hours, both last weekend and this weekend off, and basically no studying to do. This is going to be glorious! I worked out today, did laundry, etc. Nice to relax.
Unfortunately, my mind keeps going back to my test on Friday...eek, eek, eek! It was hands down the hardest test I have ever taken. Boards...psh! They have NOTHING on this Shelf. I am a VERY fast test taker usually, but I barely finished this exam; almost no one else I talked to finished. Granted, I was absolutely whipping through it and had no time to really think about any of the answers...it was pure gut feeling. Scary! It'll be quite a while before I hear back about how I did.
While Friday morning was scary, D and I went to a concert with our guy friends, M and N. Long story short, D and I ended up walking out of the concert alone, wandering around looking for the lightrail stop, getting talked to by a CREEPER, riding 40 minutes back, and then walking back to our apartment at 12:30am. Freakin' trip. And don't worry, M and N never texted us to make sure we got home ok.
Saturday night I hung out with C, his friends from high school, his brother, and some of his brother's friends. I had a pretty darn good time! I didn't know anyone there except C; he was not attached to my hip and I certainly wasn't going to follow him around like a puppy dog, so I was forced to socialize with these people. I forgot how much I like meeting new people and just talking; when I have my confident boots on it is SO fun. That is a part of me that died and I'm excited that it's coming back. It was intimidating, but I had fun. Trying to decide if it is good or bad that he took me to hang out with his friends and his brother...I think good because he's not making me a secret but maybe bad because he didn't want to hang out alone? I'm leaning more towards good. Hopefully we'll hang out again.
Unfortunately, my mind keeps going back to my test on Friday...eek, eek, eek! It was hands down the hardest test I have ever taken. Boards...psh! They have NOTHING on this Shelf. I am a VERY fast test taker usually, but I barely finished this exam; almost no one else I talked to finished. Granted, I was absolutely whipping through it and had no time to really think about any of the answers...it was pure gut feeling. Scary! It'll be quite a while before I hear back about how I did.
While Friday morning was scary, D and I went to a concert with our guy friends, M and N. Long story short, D and I ended up walking out of the concert alone, wandering around looking for the lightrail stop, getting talked to by a CREEPER, riding 40 minutes back, and then walking back to our apartment at 12:30am. Freakin' trip. And don't worry, M and N never texted us to make sure we got home ok.
Saturday night I hung out with C, his friends from high school, his brother, and some of his brother's friends. I had a pretty darn good time! I didn't know anyone there except C; he was not attached to my hip and I certainly wasn't going to follow him around like a puppy dog, so I was forced to socialize with these people. I forgot how much I like meeting new people and just talking; when I have my confident boots on it is SO fun. That is a part of me that died and I'm excited that it's coming back. It was intimidating, but I had fun. Trying to decide if it is good or bad that he took me to hang out with his friends and his brother...I think good because he's not making me a secret but maybe bad because he didn't want to hang out alone? I'm leaning more towards good. Hopefully we'll hang out again.
9.24.2009
Re-do
Hmm. Now that I have been thinking about this more, I think I thought my date went better than C thought it went. The more I microanalyze it the more I pick up on little signs that maybe it wasn't going as well as I thought. Just little comments he made or just a vibe I was getting. But then there were other signs that it was going pretty darn well...if I'm interpreting those signs right that is.
I am crazy. I'm sure that I am making way too big a deal about this...I mean who cares if he calls or not? It was one date, it happens all the time that first dates don't go on to second dates. It really is not a big deal. And on the other hand, just because I haven't heard from him at all today and he didn't end up coming over last night to go swimming (he was at his brother's and was planning on leaving at 10 but didn't end up leaving til later, he did tell me that part) does not mean it was a bad date. I think it just means that it wasn't a great date. Or he's just a player. Or, back to the beginning, I'm crazy and getting way WAY too detailed with this.
I don't have time for this! My test is tomorrow, I need to stop obsessing over everything except Internal Medicine topics. Bah!
I am crazy. I'm sure that I am making way too big a deal about this...I mean who cares if he calls or not? It was one date, it happens all the time that first dates don't go on to second dates. It really is not a big deal. And on the other hand, just because I haven't heard from him at all today and he didn't end up coming over last night to go swimming (he was at his brother's and was planning on leaving at 10 but didn't end up leaving til later, he did tell me that part) does not mean it was a bad date. I think it just means that it wasn't a great date. Or he's just a player. Or, back to the beginning, I'm crazy and getting way WAY too detailed with this.
I don't have time for this! My test is tomorrow, I need to stop obsessing over everything except Internal Medicine topics. Bah!
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